I may not believe in forever anymore. I may always have to cry myself to sleep at night. I may just be a girl with to big of a heart and to much trust in people. I trusted you to be the one who didn’t hurt me. I trusted you to be that boy who will love me more than all the others. You have always been the guy in my life telling me that I need better. Well I opened my eyes and looked around I found better. He happened to be right in front of me. He happened to be you. You ended up being the guy that I wanted to spend my life time with. The guy who could change everything. The guy who was better. I wanted a forever. After almost giving up on love. After almost giving up on me. I found you. I loved you. I wanted you. You are my forever. But at the same time you are my best friend and you now know how I feel. You say you feel the same. Do I trust it? You haven’t proven to me you are any different than anyone else. You haven’t proven that you can be my forever. You haven’t proven you mean it when you say its forever that you will love me. I saver every moment with you. I saver every word out of your mouth. I just hope you mean it when you say you mean forever when you say you love me.
I decided today that I dont know what to do.. I love him with all of my heart but he says we are just friends until he wants a girlfriend.. I want to wait for him.. Id wait a life time just to be with him but I dont know if he will ever be ready to date me.. I just want to be with him but I dont think that I can put myself through this anymore. There is so much hurt and so many tears and I just dont know what to do.. I dont think I can do this anymore but I dont know what to do without you.. I need you in my life I cant live without you but I need to figure out what is better for me……. </3
Today you came to me to hug me. Today you came to me to hold me tight. I didnt have to ask I didnt have to beg. You didnt think twice you just did it like you wanted to be with me. It was so simple but had so much meaning. You didnt say a word but your eyes said it all. You wanted me to know that you need me just like I need you <3
Today I realized just how much I need you in my life. I had to sit there and miss you and be so alone. I sat there just thinking about you, I sat there just hoping you were thinking of me too. I love you with all my heart you are my whole life and I cant be a day without you. I dont know if you feel the same, I dont know if you can see how my eyes light up every time I see you, I dont know if Im the only one you want. What I do know is that I will wait a life time to just be yours. I love you so much I just hope you feel the same.